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"Calm down."

Only after listening to Lee Hyun does Juwon notices that his hands are trembling. He has been clenched his fist hard.

"...I shouldn't be here today," says Juwon as he relaxes his fist. His palms begin to throb because the nails that had dug in.

I wasn't supposed to be here today. 

"Juwon."

Now, it becomes Lee Hyun's hands go into power. His tightening pressure feels like it holds Juwon's anxious mind.

"You can feel good. It's okay. It's not your fault to be vulnerable to pleasure. There are many things far more embarrassing other people are hiding."

"......"

"We all have different tastes. It just happened like that. It's not anyone's fault that their body reacts to this or that."

It's not my fault. It can't be helped. It's...it just happened like that.

Lee Hyun's low voice busily wanders in Juwon's head, the gradually eases his anxiety and makes his heart warmer.

It's probably because he's drunk. His eyes are burning, his whole body is burning with unbearable heat.

Lee Hyun wraps Juwon's head and slowly pulls it closer to his arm. To his beating heart. Juwon accepts the hug. It feels comfortable, different from the to usual touch ofs*xual means.

"But I-I... I screwed up..."

"It was just a bad timing. I think it was an unavoidable accident. If I had to blame on something, let's say it was because of the weather on that day."

"Ugh..."

Instead of responding, Juwon's mouth leaks out a muffled sound.

He has a lot to say, but can't make out anything.

Why do Lee Hyun has to be good at comforting him? Why is he so good at words? But it is also a good thing that he hugs him now. Juwon doesn't want to show his face. He doesn't want to know what expression he is making now.

Hiding in Lee Hyun's arms for quite some time and manages to calm him down, Juwon finally lifts his head. His back is rather stiff because of the awkward posture.

"Sorry."

Without even looking properly at Lee Hyun's face, Juwon apologizes.

Lee Hyun lifts his hand gently and sweeps the tears around Juwon's eyes.

"It's not your fault," he says, staring gently at the still looking down Juwon.

Juwon raises his head and makes eye contact with the man who turns out can be this affectionate. Right then, he realizes that this man does not belittle, or feel pathetic about him.

Lee Hyun's eyes have never judged Juwon. Instead, they always observe silently.

Juwon flinches. RIght. Observed. Juwon suddenly becomes afraid of those eyes, like his internal organs been seen through by them. He doesn't know how far those eyes will look and how much more he'll step in.

"It's late already. I have to go."

Juwon again avoids Lee Hyun's eyes and rises from his seat. His mind is blank, but he manages to move his feet calmly.

"Juwon."

He also takes the time to look for his phone before finally walking towards the front door. Desperate not to appear to be running away.

Lee Hyun follows behind, then grabs Juwon's arm.

"Sleep here. I'm drunk, I can't drive you home."

You want me to sleep here? How far are you really going to go?

Something inside Juwon is scared by the request. He, who barely endured the urge to hit off Lee Hyun's hot hand, refuses in a low voice.

"I'll take a taxi."

"Then would you like to wait a minute? It's hard to get a taxi here, I'll call one for you."

Juwon hesitantly nods, Lee Hyun let go of his arm. He heads back inside to look for his phone.

"Yes, please. Thank you."

Lee Hyun hangs up the phone and approaching Juwon still standing at the door. Still avoiding eye contact.

Lee Hyun lowers his posture slightly to look at Juwon and thrust his face into him. He also put his hands around Juwon's waist, who steps back a little.

A cool iron door handle pokes Juwon's back. He's startled. Not by the door handle but by Lee Hyun who is about to kiss him.

"Ah..." Juwon exclaims as he raises his head in surprise.

But then he only closes his eyes tight when Lee Hyun's lips meet his. He sucks and sucks until a ringtone wakes the two. It is Lee Hyun's.

Lee Hyun scans Juwon's mouth once more before picking up the phone. It is a call from the taxi driver he had reserved.

The taxi has arrived outside the gate. Once he hangs up the phone and put it back on his pants pocket, Lee Hyun rubs Juwon's lips with a thumb teasingly.

"You're being so obedient."

Juwon doesn't know what to answer. So, quite drunk words he wouldn't normally ask pops up.

"Lee Hyun...why do you accept me? I'm nothing to you."

Lee Hyun creases his forehead in confusion. He is quite for a moment. He opens his mouth slightly about to say something but then closes it again. His face looks troubled; lonely and disappointed.

Lee Hyun raises his hand. Juwon flinches, thinking he is about to hug him. But no. Lee Hyun only turns the doorknob behind Juwon's back.

Lee Hyun smiles as he opens the door. And as the hot outside air permeates, his lonely expression disappears.

"It's not my choice that I like you or that you become weak to me."

Juwon can feel the disappointment in that sentence.

"Be careful on your way."

Without saying any words or bye, Juwon walks out.

Clack. Leaving behind the tightly closed door and crosses the garden alone. He can't even enjoy the scenery that he likes so much. He can't look back even when he steps out of the gate and gets into the taxi. 

He feels like he just got kicked out.



DROPPED. BOOBYEEE~





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